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Starting late, trumps never starting

I planted tomato and cucumber seeds last week on the first day of this 100 Day experiment.

(I liked the idea of trying to grow some new life while trying to grow my own life. I’m into sappy symbolism.)

I know it’s WAY too late in the season for the plants. I’ll probably end up with a whole lot of nothing.

So why’d I bother?

Because I firmly believe in this t-shirt I have that says:

Dead Last Finish, Beats Did Not Finish, Which Greatly Trumps Did Not Start

It’s a running shirt, but I happen to think it applies to a whole lot in life.

It’s OKAY to start late. It’s okay to be a beginner no matter how old you are. It’s awesome to start something new. It’s kind of cool to be a late bloomer.

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This has been a year of huge firsts for me. Some of them were forced on me because of my divorce. Some are experiments to figure out who I am and what I like. Some are conscious efforts to try things that are new or outside my comfort zone.

I’ve never grown vegetables before (and I’m guessing that I won’t this year either, but I’ll try).

I run with a group on Saturday mornings. (seriously, sooooo far out of my comfort zone)

I’ve been working on a project I’m not ready to share yet.

Speaking of projects: I just started writing a new Matchmaker Mystery. Yesterday’s start was painfully slow, only 765 words. You can see the beginning here. Maybe you’ll be able to supply an answer I’m looking for and make it into the book!

Are you a late bloomer? Are there things you’re dying to try, but are afraid to start?

 4 Days Down, 96 to Go

 

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I quit running yesterday

I woke up and decided to quit running.

Sure, just the day before, I’d publicly declared I was going to train for a half marathon, but I KNEW it was time to quit.

Why?

Because I physically hurt.

And I’m tired.

And it’s hot.

And I’m fat.

And I suck at running.

And I could spend the time I spend running doing something more enjoyable.

And what kind of maniac keeps doing something they don’t enjoy?

So I decided to quit.

Then I got out of bed and started my day. Hours later, after giving myself a stern talking to, I decided not to quit after all.

Unfortunately I do this most days. It’s not always about running. Sometimes I quit writing. Sometimes I decide the effort it takes to maintain certain relationships isn’t worth it.  Sometimes I consider letting the garden die just because it’s too much work.

Mornings are not my friend. It’s when the doubt demons are at their most insistent.  (Coffee has wonderful banishing properties.)

One of the things I want to work on during this experiment, is keeping the negative thoughts at bay, because quite frankly it’s a huge waste of energy to have to keep talking myself back into doing stuff.

So for the record, as of now, I’m still running (despite the fact that the above list is still true) and writing, and taking care of the garden….but some people are still on thin ice.  😉

On the plus side, I got a really good start on plotting my next book today

How often do “quit” something? How do you banish our doubt demons?

1 Day Down, 99 to Go

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100 Day Goals

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In yesterday’s post I shared that today is the first of 100 days I’m going to use to take back my life. Today I’ll lay out my goals:

1) Write 200,000 words.  

With all the recent emotional turmoil, I haven’t been as productive as I’d have liked and it’s weighing on me as another “failure”.

I know that for some people this would be a piece of cake. 2000 words a day for 100 days. Easy math.  

Except life is never that clean. For one thing, if I wrote for 100 days straight I’m pretty sure my brain would explode (and there’s no amount of Bounty towels that could clean THAT up).  For another, some of those 100 days will be filled with other stuff, like family visits and a really cool writers conference. SOOOOO 200,000 words in 100 days is a pretty lofty goal.

 

2) Train for a half marathon.

I’ve signed up for a half marathon training program with an amazing group for a race that begins later this month so that I can hopefully complete my fourth (!) half in November. Unfortunately I’ve been plagued by old injuries recently, but I’m going to try to power through them and cross that finish line. I need a new medal.  😉

 

3) Lose 25 pounds.  

I’ve been guilty of self-medicating with food to numb my misery. No more! (Of course this means that my grocery cart may be loaded with even more Kleenex, but that’s okay. I’ll get through it.)

 

4) Meet new people.

There are many wonderful things about working from home, but it does make it a challenge to meet people and since I’ve moved to a state where I really didn’t know anybody, I’m sorely lacking in face-to-face contact. My virtual friends are awesome, but there are days when I wish I could speak out loud to someone other than my dog.  

 

5) Do things that make me happy 

I don’t even know what this will include, but I’m open to suggestions!

 

What would YOU like to accomplish in 100 Days?  

It doesn’t have to be on the same schedule as my 100 Days…just what kinds of things would you like to make a concentrated commitment to at some point?

BUT if you want to join me, today, or at any point in this journey, please do. I’d love to cheer you on.

jen

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